BIG GIRLS DON`T CRY !

LED ZEPPELIN, AC/DC, RED HOT, if that`s your thrill, well join the club.

But I do have a guilty pleasure ( something you really like but are afraid to disclose by fear of being ridiculed ) and that`s Fergie hence the title of today`s entry.

I love Fergie, her hair, her voice and especially her fiancé Josh Duhamel AKA the sexiest man alive in my humble opinion.

I love Fergie exclusively when I do house cleaning. But lately, her song BIG GIRLS DON`T CRY seems very appropriate .

Let me explain.

I often get the blues at the end of the year : May and June are the countdown months of " the last time I do this with my kids ".

These two very intense months are very hectic and then suddenly in mid-June, it comes to a brutal halt.

The kids are gone, the correction is over and the days seem longer. It`s not quite vacation ( convalescence ) time yet and it`s not the normal run-for-your life routine.

Pierre was telling some time this week : " Smile, we`re almost done, enjoy it"But I don`t know if it`s the fatigue, the end-of-the-year blues or both but I get this every year.

I cry for nothing, I get restless, I simply CANNOT sit and relax, I have trouble falling asleep ( I can usually sleep anywhere, anytime ), I`m laughing my head off one minute and the next I`m crying and so on....

And I am so not alone !!!

I was talking to a some other teachers to see if i was normal and discovered there`s a whole clan of us !

Oooof, I`m somewhat normal.

Sooooo, that song came into mind a few times in my head in the last couple of weeks ( also because this song is so addictive).

When you stop and think about it, an end of the year signifies the end of a whole bunch of stuff.

Some co-workers won`t come back next year, some students you won`t teach anymore ( my kids in sec.4 )and my kids in Sec.5 I simply won`t have the chance to see as often period.

Sooooo this week has been difficult.

And since I`m basically a cry-baby ( people who know me well can confirm), I had a lot of holding back and swallowing tears to do.

Aaah , I hear ya say how selfish I am, my kids are going towards new challenges, new adventures, experiences etc.

Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah
I know that, my head knows that, but my heart is selfish.

Surely my end-of-the-year blues is directly proportional to the fun I`ve had .

If I hadn`t so much fun and a head full of great memories I wouldn`t be feeling this way right ?

It would be more like : " Geez this year really sucked, bring on the new one already ! "

So that`s an other way of looking at it huh ?

To be very honest, I`m kinda glad I miss my kids already.

That means they touched my heart.

Thank you for a fantastic year !

Thanks to my kids in Sec.2.

I`ll see YOU in 1 year. In the meantime, stop by and say hello.

To my kids in Sec.4: you know where to find me if ever .....whatever....whenever.......

And to my kids in Sec.5 : Well, you know what, I still don`t know how I delivered my speech on Thursday without crying. I cried after.

I love you and you are in my heart forever.

And you better come and visit me otherwise I will personally kick your as&*%$/?( !!

John-Michael, take care of my Teddy bear , my heart`s in it.

Caramel ( my teddy`s name ) needs hugs and kisses, LOTS of attention and when it cries, just hold his hand.

Here are some good pics of my kids.

Those who are visual will understand my blues.Dany boy, we`re planning behind your back.Rose-Anne and Félix-Antoine : future Activists.Rosie and Andréa ( my sister DCaro`s daughter ) ballet recital. Cute as a button.Here are the reasons I like my job so much.

Oopps, I don`t why there`s so much blank space here.

Obviously I screwed up, where`s Pierre when you need him, probably preparing my dinner ( JUST KIDDING! )

Well, I can`t stand a blank space, gotta fill it up :

YOU HAVE TO SEE FERGIE`S VIDEO " BIG GIRLS DON`T CRY " !!!

THERE`S A MUSTANG FASTBACK IN IT.

BEAUTIFUL, ONLY THING WRONG WITH THIS VID IS THE END.

IT SHOULDN`T BE FERGIE LEAVING IN THE MUSTANG BUT JOSH DUHAMEL AND ME LEAVING IN THE SUNSET IN IT.

WOULDN`T THAT BE NICE ?

BIG GIRLS DON`T CRY, BUT THEY CAN DREAM RIGHT ?

TATA,

Annie DUHAMEL Frohlich Bergeron

PS : Watch the video on YouTube (TILL THE END) and tell me I wouldn`t look good in that car.

S.E Hinton had major writer`s block ( blank page syndrome ) after she wrote The Outsiders, well obviously I `d never suffer from that if ever I become an author one day.

So much space to write on, so little time.

Obviously, I have way too much time on my hands, I`ll go bug my kids.It`s my turn.