THIS SICK LEAVE IS MAKING ME STUPID !

Oh my God, it`s been a while !
I swear kids, I haven`t been neglecting you , it`s just since the X-mas holidays, I `ve had good days and some really bad ones.

As most of you know by now, my substitute teacher has informed you I am on sick leave for an undetermined period of time.
Will I be back before the end of the year ?
I ask my back and migraines this question every day !
There are days where I feel good and want to see my doctors to sign my return papers to go back to school and 2 days later,the back-neck problems and migraines come back with a vengeance!
My doctors know I `m hyper-active, so every time I visit them and tell them I find it long to see the end of this they answer : " Yep, it`s long Annie, and that`s why WE decide when you go back! "
It wasn`t the answer I was looking for.

REASONS WHY I NEED TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL :

1- I have way too many pyjamas now that are colour coordinated with my different pairs of slippers and socks even.And pyjamas are not sexy.

2-I`m all alone at home till the kids and Pierre get back from school.
My chocolate Labrador?,Well she is thrilled to the gills with my sick leave.I`m about to get my Dog Whisperer certificate .

3- Speaking of my dog Baileys, on good days I show her new tricks.
Recently I realized that my dog is getting smarter and I `m getting dumber with all this time and medication!

4- I miss my students,my co-workers, the fun, the action and ESPECIALLY TEACHING !
I miss the laughter, the interaction with the kids in the classroom.
You guys ALWAYS laugh at my jokes and my sarcasm. Baileys couldn`t care less.
I miss my happy dancing in the principals` corridor with my IPod on and the secretaries kicking me out of their offices telling " You`re such a nut "
on the way out.

5- I miss the hugs my students give me at the end of the day or Friday afternoon before the weekend.I miss your visits in my classroom at break to tell me the good and bad stuff that`s going on .I miss the love notes on my classroom board or my desk . I never doubted the " I love you " you wrote me.

6- As much as I love my doctors and think they are the best, I`m tired of seeing them every week.I `m in great hands, I `m not complaining,but doctors`offices, hospitals and tests are wearing me out. Only consolation, I see other patients and some are so worst off than me.

7- NAPPING: now I understand my kids when they were little and didn`t want to nap !
Take today for example:" I won`t nap today, I can do it !"
Next thing you know, I `m sleeping on the sofa with the Olympics on and I `m drooling all over myself.
Change to a clean set of pyjamas !

8- I am getting stupid ! As much as the medication is helping me physically, intellectually, I`m NOT the sharpest tool in the shed !!
When I work, I concentrate, solve problems, conflicts, answer questions, interact with people so your brain has to be sharp and quick ..... always.
And I `m sorry but I LIKE to be sharp as a tack !!!!!
So now I do Mandalas ( thanks Nadia ), crossword puzles, write, read and Facebook so I can stay alert and not feel like I am brain dead.

BUT ENOUGH OF THE WHINING !
I`m surprised no one has offered me any cheese with my WHINE yet ?! Remember that expression kids ?

Being a positive,optimistic person , I did find some good sides to this situation:
............:/
I swear I did once.................?
Must be my medication again, I should start drooling on myself any minute now !

OH YES FOUND IT :
1- I have to take bubble baths in the Jaccuzi: doctor`s orders.
Annie version includes soft music with nature sounds and candles. LOTS of candles !
And because the kids are at school, they can`t find me and ask me " URGENT " questions like " What`s for dinner ?! "

2- I read on my new e-book : J.D Salinger, more Kerouac, Sylvia Plath ( on my good days...). Without being disturbed. My kids usually, feel it when I `m about to sit and read so that usually means : " Let`s go ask mom something, anything".

3- I get pampered by my man, who`s excellent by the way, and I LET him.

4- Being a HUGE fan of Supernatural, I rewatch and rewatch seasons 1-4 1/2 on my laptop.......in bed, over and over and over again.
Good for the blues and nice dreams are ALWAYS guaranteed.

5- I `m off coffee! Yes you read well, I can only take 1 or 2 a day. I drink so much herbal tea I `m slowly becoming a hippie. Pretty soon I`ll be wearing flowers in my hair permanently !

So on that darling kids, your teacher is off to bed with her e-book and laptop.
Have no doubts that when I `ll be back, I `ll be back with a vengeance. Don`t want to scare ya though Ü

I would really like to visit you all in class but I can`t drive with the meds I take , I could walk to school but because of the meds I am most often incoherent and confused.
And it would just make me miss you guys more anyway. But I do think of you every day.
Thank you for your kind words you send me,cards,I really appreciate them.
I am truly blessed.

Here`s a lttle something for us all :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3g0RpOiHEMM ( copy and paste )

TaTa my darlings,see you soon,
Annie xx